Wheeee!

Ahem.

So yes. My brain.

Rollercoaster just about covers it.

Last couple of weeks I have fluctuated (sometimes quite violently) from fine to Not Fine quite a lot. There have been tears, laughter, shouting, and everything inbetween.

Some days I have had to have music or an audiobook on constantly to keep me company, other days I have needed silence because literally anything else took me into total overwhelm and breakdown.

Is it better than before? I honestly have no idea. I think so, but also at times I just want to hide in a hole so I don’t implode and take everything nearby with me.

I’m trying to work through it, there are a great many lists of Things happening, and I am trying to keep busy (even took myself to an exercise class yesterday evening, which I enjoyed but am now slightly regretting because I ache!). Hopefully, routine will help me settle and get my brain out of overdrive/rollercoaster mode over time.

But right now? I have just had an implosion and I have a headache, so I’m going to go get a drink and a biscuit and let myself take ten minutes out to breathe before choosing the next thing on my list to tackle.

Brains are silly. Amazing and clever… but also silly.