I was letting my dark clouds win. They were just getting thicker and I was getting worse. I was firm in the belief that I couldn’t do…well…pretty much anything. But yesterday my Mum came round and helped me blitz the kitchen and today I am on a mission to at least get the front room…… Continue reading The Little Carole Heidi That Could
Close the curtains to shut out the light. Close your eyes to create endless night. Shut your ears to every sound. Shut your mind and go to ground. That is today. That’s how I feel. I’m a hamster in an endless wheel. Feel like I can’t keep going. But I’ve got to. My two…… Continue reading Having A Bad Day
I always said I was going to grow old gracefully – you know, adapt my wardrobe appropriately and not dye my hair. I still stand by that with one minor adjustment – having found 4 grey hairs in 2 weeks I am postponing ‘graceful’ for a while until I start counting vaguely as ‘old’. Tomorrow…… Continue reading Growing Old Gracefully
I had a bit of a panic attack this morning. This really isn’t like me at all – I get a bit worried about stuff and often have a stress the night before things (for ‘stress’ read grouch and wail and stomp around like a teenager because I didn’t pack/organise myself properly until the last…… Continue reading I Can’t Do It.
No-one needs to see your tears – so keep them in; buried deep beside your fears. . No-one needs to know your pain – so paint a smile again, again, again, again. . No-one feels your loneliness – so hide that too claim happiness. . The tears will show, that smile will crack, and no-one…… Continue reading Not Alone.